There's a life adjustment when you lose a loved one like I recently did, where there's a hole now filled with ache and longing. You know you'll never see that person again, who will fill those shoes, albeit in a very different way?
When you retire your beloved horse, one that you bonded with and competed over many years, there's a part of you missing, one that you often look back on with sadness, wishing that you had that once again.
Maybe you have to learn to be braver than you ever thought you could be. You have to take more uncalculated risks, put yourself out there more, don't you think, way beyond your comfort zone.
As Picasso so wisely said, "I am always doing that which I cannot do in order that I may learn how to do it."
Filling that void can indeed be painful and difficult but formulated correctly can breathe new life into an old one. Be brave out there!